For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I remember as a teenager the wanting of wearing the Cloth. At the age of 15 I spoke to my Parish Priest. I still remember the day, the way the room looked, the way the light fell on the floor. My Parish Priest told me to come back when I was 18 years old.
At the age of seventeen, I met the man that I would later marry, have two children with, and have now been married to for 27 years. This was not part of my plan, but it was part of Gods plan.
I wondered, what can I honestly do in the world for God? If I could just be a servant in the non-secular world, I could do so much more. These were my thoughts for many years. I would come to find out in my early 30s, after a series of events, why God wanted me in the world, in the secular world instead of the non-secular world.
My marriage was on the brink of ending in my early 30s, my husband was very lost, I began to become lost, my children were seeing too many things in the world and then coming home and seeing their parents arguing and their mom losing faith. I started to ask God, “is this why you wanted me to be married?” I remember having, “a grudge” against God.
Later, I understood very much why what transpired in my life from a child, to a teenager to an adult to where I am right now, going into my mid 40s, that God’s reasoning, is always right.
If I had chosen to go on the path of becoming a Nun, I would not have been able to meet as many people as I have in the secular world.
I appreciate God’s plan for my life, although sometimes, I must admit, I still think what may have been. But, I don’t stay there for too long anymore. God would not want me to.
We can all serve God in different ways.