Definition of failure

1a: omission of occurrence or performancespecifically : a failing to perform a duty or expected action

A Failure of a relationship

From the Merriam-Webster Dictionary

 

A failure of a relationship. When I first read that, I thought, ‘At this moment in my life, where do I have a failure of a relationship?’

After applying that question to myself, “Where do I have a failure of a relationship?” I saw myself flash in my mind. What a funny thought,’ I reflected – and then rejected.

Busying myself with house chores, I thought about playing an audiobook or listening to the news.

There came a point in my life when having just a little bit of noise, even if that was an instrumental song playing, was just too loud in that moment.

At the same time, God’s Gentle Nod, asking me to please take some time in silence, to learn the in-disposable wealth of silence.


“We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature – trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence… We need silence to be able to touch souls.” – Saint Teresa of Calcutta

 

I remember feeling how overwhelmingly overwhelming that was going to be not having to listen to something. I thought, ‘What a waste of time this will be, being in silence.’

I remember the first few times, being in complete silence. I remember hearing things that I had never really heard before.

Hearing the way that the pipes sound as heat is distributed through them. The hum of the dishwasher and refrigerator.

I really heard my dogs breathing when they were sleeping. 

In time, silence has become my best friend. While the flesh always wants to be constantly entertained at all times, consistently wanting to bring streams of all pleasure to keep us on moving through the secular world, there is a calling for each one of us in the spiritual interior that God has called us all to. Perhaps you could call it the great banquet between you and the Holy Trinity. 

“I have yet many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth; for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come.” – John 16:12-13

When we are invited to a friends home for dinner, that friend has taken time to think about the menu, shopping and then the execution of it. To picking flowers for the table, down to choosing the time that everyone will sit down to eat. Cleaning of the house and taking the time to get dressed and to serve, entertain and then clean. This all takes great effort … and why do we do this? We do this because we appreciate the people that we will be breaking bread with us around our table.

We must then believe that God created us to communicate with Him. There is a reason why silence is so beautiful, but yet so overwhelming at the same time. 

For thus said the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel: “By waiting and by calm you shall be saved, in quiet and in trust shall be your strength.” Isaiah 30:15. 

The most difficult thing about silence to me was just getting used to wanting to try and be in silence. And so I set apart three days a week where the radio, videos, TV, music, etc. was off. This was not an easy task to do because my flesh rebelled but it’s that feeling of rebellion that we need to work out of our lives.

In silence is where God and the intellect meet. Where contemplation deepens. It is where God is the easiest to listen to. We wonder where is He in times of crisis? How come we can’t hear Him? How come we can’t see Him in the events that are taking place in the world?

He is everywhere and in everything at all times – ever Omnipresent.

Silence starts with the will and want. Pray today to become closer to God in Silence.

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